What you do

There is always what you WANT to do.

But it is hidden by several 'reasons'
There always what you should do.
What you 'supposed to' want to do.
What is good to do.
What is expected to do by others.

I often lose what 'my wishes' because of these.
i often confuse myself with others.

I used to be a very weird child. Some people hate me because of this,  but i wanted to be loved by everyone.

And i think i found the way. Pretty much.

It is my logic, and i success.

but the side-effect of this logic is losing myself.
When i found the logic was 15.
And i lost myself first time was 17.

Yes, my logic is not perfect.

It is stressful, and i was too young to find its not 'wrong' to be different.

But i think i'm on a better position for looking wider.
I can keep myself, and i can lose myself.
I need more time to control this though.

One of my logic of being a nice person.
Just listen, and say possitive.
Even if its wrong, who cares. I don't care, its not my business.
acting possitive, pretend like your interested in it, ask question what they want to speak.

Yea, this is why i say conversation is meaningless..