happy new year

Hi　happy new year.
I'm not really drawing or painting these days. I was just relaxing and start some work out.

I'm not very good at continue. for example, diet, eat healthy, get up this time..

I decided to work out because my last winter clothe doesn't fit me.

and exercise is also good for mental health.


I know why. by medical reason.

I've learned about massage before, and also about psycology in the same time.

because body and emotion are very close, and related.


when you are depressed, your standing position maybe bent back.
that's because you are scared of something or nervous and you don't breathe enough, this cause your chest muscle stiff. (because your lung doesn't move enough)
chest muscle contracts and pull your shoulders, here is the depression position!

depression position cause many bad things.
if your shoulders set more forward than it supposed to be, you get a back pain.
you can't stand right, then you get knee pain as well.
if you have knee pain, it makes your ankle stiff, then you feel hard to walk.

when you feel its hard to walk, you don't want to move, you don't have to breathe because you're not moving enough.

if you are lack of oxygen, your brain going to be dopey, can't think positive, everything seems so worthless.


I know this feelings, I have been in a depression episode many times, even I know this logic, its hard to get out.


right now, I'm not in a depression mood, neither manic mood(I guess)

I want to keep this mood as long as I can, and also I want to keep my blog and working out.
keeping blog can be good to see how I was after a while, because I know I am like a different person every episode.
I gave up on remembering, looking back, and keep any memories. so this is like my diary.

actually this blog is something like a challenge for myself, as I wrote I'm not good at continue, but I want to continue "something"


okay, so maybe its not fun to read this time though, I try keep uploading my life and paintings.
thank you for reading. good night.

they are tshirt and boots I painted, actually the boots haven't be done yet, I'll upload later soon.

I'm going to sell them on ebay, I'm wating for the id confirmation.

if you would like to buy my tshirt, or boots, just comment me please.

I have more tshirts and caps. boots is only this.