Angry wolf

I can't draw good..
I can feel something is wrong, it feels like numb.
Maybe its what i long to wish. But this feels so empty.
i don't really feel good, i don't even feel. But sometimes all the sudden it attack me, the guilty or an anger.
Maybe i'm going to lose my control? Or does it mean i am getting better?

I don't know why i draw so bad. I can't concentrate, i can't see the details, no ideas comes up.