Colors

I think everyone had thoughts that Everything i see is actually a lot different.
Everything i see might be just soneone's dream, or imagination.
And then you might go on a journey of philosophy world, but in some point, you notice.. wait, what was the first question? Meh nevermind, i have a lot to do in THIS world.

I often think about this, what if its true? How can you tell?

But like drawn man cannot draw his wife, we can't figure out 'the truth'

It might be a philosophy.
it might be a physics.

just like this, i have an issue about colors.

Colors. It means a lot to me. I like colors.
but in the same time, sometimes, when i don't feel right, all colors sting my eyes and it actually hurts.
Its like they run into me for getting their identity. Or stealing my identity.

Then i try to look at them in Two dimensions. i try to stop them running.

Symptoms

Its getting cold these days and i feel like the world left me behind.
It feels so alone, feeling like everyone has been taken by alian and replaced.
I see everything as brand new, i feel like i haven't seen it before.
Then i think: what if its true that everything has been changed
Then i hear: cry of the cicada and wispering of woman's voice
Those makes me confused what is real. And my mind is exhausted by living this fake world pretending like i don't notice..
I feel danger of my life from the fake world.

I think all of this is not only from aspergar or bipolar.. i think its beginning of schizophrenia. Yes i know its crazy talking, but the problem is i won't be able to keep my mind sanity longer.
So what i do is taking sleeping pills and sleep as much as i can, hoping some day i wake up and i see the world i supposed to be.

Test

Two owls on the moon