i never been confortable traveling years. and so was this year.
every new years eve, i feel like i'm loosing everything. i am the only one to go to the next year.
so right after the clock says 00:00, i am so empty.
and the worst thing is there is no moment to prepare for the next year. not even one second. right after you pass through 23:59, next moment you are already in the first second of the next year.
i know its wrong. people live same lives, and everything are same. but you know, i just can't feel it.
what if i was right? what if the world is exist depends on me?
what if the world keep renewal everyday at 00:00?
what if also YOU are not the continual existence?
isn't it scary?
every new years days, i feel it and it makes me nervous.
this year also, i couldn't feel right for few days, but luckly, i got myself back!
FYI the reason i can't post my paintings picture, i broke my phone.
i was riding on a motorbike watching TV on my phone, and i dropped it><
it was a stupid idea to set my phone on a just plastic holder, without a strap just in case.
the "case" got to be happened, and now i'm living very inconvenient life...
but it can be good somehow, i can forget about "the time" which is i'm trapped forever.
thanks for visiting my blog. see you next time!
(hoping i will be able to post my paintings next time!)
