Expression

Today i was talking to my friend, and he said he found an interesting girl that he likes. She's a porn star.

He says its not like that he likes her playing or her body and stuff.
He reads her blog constantly, and he thinks she's mysterious.

i asked what makes her so interesting.

He said
she likes buildings. Factory buildings.
She likes buildings? That's not what girls do!

Hmmm ok.

She sometimes just take a photo of herself just standing somewhere without smile.
That's not what girls do either!!

Hmmm
And he showed me some drawings that she drew.
They were pretty, very good with poems.

He said which one the biggest impact him, it was two drawings.

One is a couple looking at the beautiful city lights.
And saying 'what you are looking at...'

Second one is a window, a man is working in it.
And saying 'is built by someone'

My friend said 'oh my god this is so deep! I've never seen city lights this way. She's incredible '

I felt something through this.
I've been thought or see in the other way of people, and yeah, i had felt like this when i saw city lights.

Well.. i thought a little different way though.
I thought, i see whole city lights built by little single windows.
I may see someone's working, or cooking, or making love, through the window, All lights.
as i see this city lights view, i felt like i'm having their lives. Actually i'm seeing them, i'm having them right in my hand.
I catch their piece of life, from every single windows.
I felt energy. I felt power, i felt fear.

anyway, what i mean is..
I have thought 'unique' way somehow.
but i've never be able to express it in a right way. Like my friend, he didn't know even though we've been to see city lights many times.
i thought 'expression' is difficult.