Depression

I found that i may be in a depression mood these days.

I've been feeling something wrong, my body was tired and no idea comes up my mind.
I was irritated of everything,
It was hard to deal with anger.
I remembered many things and i regret all.
I feel like i lived too much to deal with all of my memories.

I was wondering why. Why am i like this? Last days i spent many time on drawing or painting, something creative.
It took me few days to figure out but i finally did.
It is depression.

People ask me what push me into depression, what happened..

But honesty,  i have no idea.

My illness is called bipolar disorder. I repeat manic episode and depression episode over and over.
I've been thinking what cause me to switch between those.

Definitely lack of sleep can cause me manic episode.
I found this before.

But depression?
After manic episode i always having depression term.
so when i get tired, i get in depression?

But i haven't had that big manic episode these days.
Maybe that's why i am not in that big depression mood right now.

Anyway, everything is so ridiculous.
i hate all of the world included myself.