The rabbit in the moon

I've been sick for days, I thought it was just a cold but it went too long to recover.

I still have high temperature though getting better..

during I was sick, I've been to work, having insomnia. nothing was good for health.

but I like physical pain somehow. I can focus to pain, sick, exhausting. the worst thing is on the way to recover. I feel better and better and my mental pain coming back more and more.

I'm in the bed, not too sick to be able to fall asleep, but not too good to be able to get up and do things.

my memories attack me pushing me down. 

if you get one, you loose one.

this is so true, I got mental peace when I'm sick. when I'm fine, I always thinking death.

there's no reason why I want to die, its interesting.

anyway, even during I was sick, I'm happy to have some work to do.

my part time work, mascot charactor job.

my regular job, massage(this is also by myself by the way).

and of course the tshirt paintings and helping my friend making the Japanese course.

right now, helping Japanese course is almost part of my life now. because I don't really have a specific vision of my future business yet. I'm still thinking.

anyway (again)

I drew a picture of the story "the rabbit in the moon" the old story of Japan. for the Japanese course.

this is kind of cruel story as every old stories are.

long time ago, there were a rabbit, a monkey, and a fox.

one day an old man came to ask them for a food.

monkey and fox could find some foods to give him but rabbit couldn't.

so rabbit decided to sacrifice himself so the old man can eat him.

the rabbit jumped in the fire.

after the rabbit went in the fire, an old man showed up his real appearance. 

he was the god named Taishakuten

Taishakuten felt sorry about the rabbit and in the same time he appreciated of his sacrifice.

so he put the shadow of the rabbit in the moon so that all people can see it and remember the brave of the rabbit.

oh my god...

poor rabbit.

old stories are always ALWAYS cruel. I wonder why.

I don't know a happy peaceful bright story in those.

but, I'm not gonna write every my feelings this time, I haven't done my theory yet.

maybe soon..