Future

I think of future these days.
I used to think my life would be end up in this year.
Now i don't want to kill myself here.
As i wrote last time, i wish this year for my semicolon point.

And i drew the life i want. I wish to have.. and as i imagine details i can make it happen.

I want to live with art.
I want peope to know myself.
I want to stay confident with my mental issues.

I have a knowledge of massage.
I draw a picture. I have a passion.
I speak english and japanese.

When i use all of them in a 'right way' i think i can make some money to live.
I don't need a lot of money, i just want to stay living in a happy moment.

I may be going to sell my motorcycle that i love.
I need money right now and i choose not to get a part time job.

Its hard to work right now honesty. I want to keep my motivation.
I don't want to get back to the hospital.

When i choose something, there's always 'risk'
I take the risk that i have to loose my bike than getting a part time job.