Worse

I thought it was depression yesterday.
But it doesn't seem only depression, maybe the opposite.
Because today its hard to hold on my anger, hear too many noise, see too much things that make me upset.

I wear a cap deeply, and listen to loud music, but still i hear too much noise.

I try not to see around but i feel.

I had a nightmare even though i slept only few hours.
I didn't feel i actually had sleeping.

It seems more busy than depression.

I feel it more dangerous, risky to do something wrong.
I was confortable to make people unconfortable.
I could speak without thinking, and i don't really remember what i said.

I think its a beggining of manic episode.
Ah i miss that moment.. i felt like i was a hero or something, felt like i was high by special drug.

It is frustrated.

If i go wrong, it'll be killing hard to deal.

I'm going to take a sleeping pill as soon as i get home.