2016年2月27日土曜日

Who am i?

I wamt to be  a person who is deep.

And i'm getting to be like that.

When i was 14 and 15 years old, i used to think  'where am i?' "Who am i?'

The beggining of philosophy.

I've been lost in the great question for long and i don't get the right answer yet.

But sometimes i think this way.
I am nobdoy, i am what people see through their coloful glasses.

Some people see i'm a hard worker, some people see i'm lazy.
Some people see i'm good at drawing, some people.don't.

some people thinks i'm silly, stupid, crazy.
But some people thinks i'm interesting.

Just like everything is, i am 3D as well.
You can't tell what is 'me' by one side.

But thinking in 3D way, very difficult.
i feel more like...
Who am i? I'm the king of the world.

Everything is exist because of me, only for me.
What i don't like, i can delete.
Even people, even building, anything.
If i die, everything will disappear.

By the way, in my real life, i have friends. I talk a lot, i enjoy social life. I know how to smile, how to make people smile, what is funny.
so many people don't believe that i have mental disorders and wishing to end everything.
Because i look healthy.
Because i can pretend so.

Its like i'm having a beast in my mind.
I can keep him in a cage, but sometimes i need to take him to a walk.

Take him to a walk, can be some art, can be being a little crazy, can be a dangerous philosophy or religion.

This is what everyone do though. They try to hide the beast.
I try not to hide him, because beauty is usually scary.

Have a nice weekend!

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