Have you seen semicolon tattoo?
I'm thinking to get one on my arm.
as I mentioned before, I had a feeling of my 26 age. I thought I would die or marry.
it seems neither gonna happen in a month..
I don't want to kill myself. I wish I could but as long as I'm standing normal I try to avoid suicide.
I want to let many people know how it is like to live with depression or whatever.
I sometimes fall into depression, sometimes so bad that I would go crazy.
sometimes I feel very happy that much I could fly away. and I repeat them over and over.
even though I'm taking medication properly, it seems impossible to live "normal life"
maybe its because I also having aspergar's syndrome, I am not good at people.
I usually don't know the answer that seems easy for people around me.
they look at me weirdly as like thinking "why can't she understand this shit? just a simple thing. so stupid"
if I was working, boss yelling at me but I could never been able to understand the answer.
sometimes I loose job because of this, and I never know the answer.
life is difficult, for everyone. none lives just happy life. I know this, but I want people to know how hard to deal with aspergar's and bipolar disorders.
I'm all the time scared because maybe next moment I would be feeling different.
next moment, maybe the world changes everything and attacks me pushing me down.
or next moment, maybe someone smiling in front of me would be upset, mad at me, yelling at me.
its hard to discribe, but every moment I see differently.
even colors are changing, I hear differently, feel differently.
I feel like what is changing is myself.
next moment I would be the different person.
anyway.
I don't want to kill myself.
I want to live strong.
but the curse is right next to me, this is the number 26.
now I thought this way.
maybe I can make this age for the turning point of my life.
to swear never give up.
this is a big dicision, I need to think about it.
I haven't drawn any new pictures, sorry about it but these are my products I painted.
they are available in Etsy.
https://www.etsy.com/shop/Rico81Japan?ref=hdr_shop_menu
thank you and have a nice day!
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