Asperger's

I talked to my mom about asperger last night.
And she said since doctor told her that i have improving issue, she tried to speak clearly and explain more.

Thanks mom, i improved!

She told me about a story when i was 15 or something, she asked me to pass her rice plate, rice plate is called ochawan in japanese tho it literarily means tea ball , i didn't understand and passed her a glass.
And after she got to know i have that issue, she realized that she haven't taught me what its called.

And now i learned.

She says i just need to learn, if i learn, i understand.
People usually feel and get, but not logic.
I just need to know the logic.

I very appreciate my mom.

It was funny last night when i and mom were talking, and my dad came.
I and my dad talked a little bit about camera, and suddenly he left.
And my mom asked me 'do you know why he left?'
Hell no! He just left suddenly in the middle of our conversation!
She said 'he's coming back with his camera to show you'
I didn't believe her but my dad came back with his camera!!
Oh my god, there're more things to learn apparently.
I felt like my mom has a super power.

I have everything in my head as a data, logic, theory.
i don't feel, so i have to see, listen, and think. And i know how to make the answer, its like calculation in my head.
Some people say sometimes there's no right answer. But there IS. ALL THE TIME.
And i know everything is black or white. Nothing is in between.
Even when people say there's no one correct answer, they feel something. And i don't. Which means i need to find the answer what they expect.
It takes time to find the answer sometimes, especially when i have too many informations. I need to pick up the right information and calculate.
Its a lot of work, but people usually do it without thinking, even without knowing.
It can be like a handycap for me, but once i learn, i do better than anyone.

invisible is scary. I don't believe emotion, time, and so on. Because i don't see them. What i don't see, its nothing for me. Yes, for me, but me is all.
But just like doing FX like controling money that its not exist yet.. if you know the logic, even if it is not exist yet, you can control. And get real money. Yes, answer.
I'm doing my life like this.

I think i can write a book 'comunication' for asperger's people. Well, maybe some great doctor already done a lot though.