Rainy day

Its depression in rainy day.
But this time i feel more like strange, nervous.
I'm not sure what i am nervous about, but my heart beat faster and i sweat.

Maybe because its cold today. It was warm few days ago and i expected it to become spring soon. Now its cold.

I want season to be changing just like going next page in the book.

I don't like ' gradually ' changing.

I used to be very depressed in spring and fall. Because of this reason.
So i decided to set my own 'page' in the season. I set the beggining of october for winter last year.
It seems i need to set the time for summer very soon.
I have to watch the weather news very carefully, and see weather history.

By the way, it is very cold today. Its impossible to wear summer clothe now.

By the way
I talked to my friend few days ago, i met him in US, he was travelling around america by motorbike after he retired his job.
Its impressive that he's enjoying his life.
Because to enjoy something is a lot of work without getting paid.
Its like doing volunteer for your life.
enjoy something is what people can do only who has a perpose in their life.

I'm going to ask him what is his purpose in his life next time.