Medication

today I'm going to talk about my medication I am having.

I take 12 pills every night.

Litium, Zyprexa, Valproic acid, Levomepromazine, and a sleeping pill which is Zopiclone.

Litium is scary.

one day I realized that my absolute pitch of music has been a little bit lower.

so when I play the piano, it sounds freaking crazy. I hear different sounds from which I play.

I told my doctor and she said its maybe because of Litium!
Litium! I wonder how it works in my body.

because this medicine makes my mind calm, smaller emotion waves, but makes my absolute pitch crazy.

the sense of music should be completely different out ways from emotion stuff.

secondly, Zyprexa. this is scary too.

especially girls. I'm a girl so I am interested of my weight.

and this zyprexa makes me forever eating.

combination of sleeping pills, I eat forever.

why I eat forever? because if I'm not, I feel like to throw up. 

and the next day, I'm not able to get up until dinner time.

there's nothing I can do. but fortunately 

my doctor gave me minimum amount of Zyprexa.

Zopiclone is good.

but sometimes some strange funny thing happen with me.

I eat, buy, walk around, talk to friends... without knowing.

well I pretty sure I'm okay at that time but,I don't remember anything.

even some of them I have told my disease before, he sees me with a little scary, nervous.. I can't discribe but he thinks I'm crazy.

it was sad that he saw me like that.