been busy

i haven't updated my blog for a while, happy new years!

i never been confortable traveling years. and so was this year.

every new years eve, i feel like i'm loosing everything. i am the only one to go to the next year.

so right after the clock says 00:00, i am so empty.

and the worst thing is there is no moment to prepare for the next year. not even one second. right after you pass through 23:59, next moment you are already in the first second of the next year.

i know its wrong. people live same lives, and everything are same. but you know, i just can't feel it.

what if i was right? what if the world is exist depends on me?

what if the world keep renewal everyday at 00:00?

what if also YOU are not the continual existence?

isn't it scary?

every new years days, i feel it and it makes me nervous.

this year also, i couldn't feel right for few days, but luckly, i got myself back!

FYI the reason i can't post my paintings picture, i broke my phone.

i was riding on a motorbike watching TV on my phone, and i dropped it><

it was a stupid idea to set my phone on a just plastic holder, without a strap just in case.

the "case" got to be happened, and now i'm living very inconvenient life...

but it can be good somehow, i can forget about "the time" which is i'm trapped forever.

thanks for visiting my blog. see you next time!

(hoping i will be able to post my paintings next time!)